Ahhh. The swirl of the holidays is past. I’m feeling grateful to be back home, returned from my visit “back home.” Like I thought it would be, the trip was one of ups and downs, of excitement and dread. It was…the holidays. My holidays. As much as I work to manage my expectations, there is a part of me that always (dare I use the superlative) feels a certain melancholy, a particular let-down regarding Christmas. As foolish as this may sound, there is still a young girl in me who wants to feel enchanted, who is hoping for something magical. There is also an adult in me who longs for yearly traditions that have been part of my life since I was a child. But enchantment and magic aren’t felt. And I don’t have age-old, family traditions to replay year after year. Thus…I’m happy it is past. I can take a deep breath and turn toward 2011. A new year. A new beginning. A new birth.
I love how this time of year encourages me to take stock of my journey, to reflect on where I’ve been and dream of where I’d like to venture. A year ago this very week, I set intentions for what I wanted for my life in 2010. It was a rather beautiful experience as I lit a candle for each intention that I set. As I look back on this year, I see that a solid handful of them were fulfilled, some more completely than others. And as I dream of 2011, my intentions for this coming year echo many of those from the year past as well as sound new calls.
Engaging in Reverb10 has helped me shape clearer intentions for this new year, such as mindfully choosing a word to encapsulate my longings for 2011 (creativity), clearing space by eliminating 11 things from my life, and considering something I want to try (mixed media painting). During this coming year, I want to truly embrace creativity in every aspect that I can–in my photography, my journalling, my blogging, my new adventures in painting, my research, my knitting, my clothing choices, my connections with others, my spirit, and my very outlook on life. I want to jump into new creative opportunities that come my way, without believing “I’m not good at that” or “I can’t do that.” I want to continue my letter-writing with dear friends, as this has been such a gift to me to slow down, and sit with pen and paper, hand-writing a loving letter. I want to live in a more embodied manner, focusing on connecting mind-body-spirit. I’m even considering a self-imposed yoga challenge for January to kickstart this intention. I want to read more and watch less. I want to be more present with my partner (and I want more date nights!). I want to make conscious choices of how I spend my time. I want to embrace an attitude of gratitude, every day.
This is just a start to my dreams for 2011. I’m ecstatic realizing all the potential this new year brings. My story is still being written, and it is magical to recognize that I can choose what gets written next. What are your intentions for 2011? What will your story be?